You know who...

Do people not realize that decisions they make in life hurt others they don't even know exist? Do they not know that the changes they make don't only affect them. I'm not calling anyone selfish, but sometimes running away, trying to make things better, isn't the best solution. They know other people care, and they know a few will be hurt, but look at the big picture. You're changing not only one person's life, but everyone who has been around. You have to let things flow and see where that takes you. Trying to make someone's life better by changing everything they ever had, isn't fair. Being away from home for so long and so much has changed, so much will change, and they have no idea what is going on, or what is coming. I'm scared, worried, and excited. You probably are too.

I'm not going to explain my reason for writing this, because it has happened so many times, you can already guess.

One, after another, after another, after another.
This is getting ridiculous and I'm tired of being left behind. I guess things just happen that way and i have to accept it. There's nothing i can do to change the on coming future. I just have to hope for the best. Keep my high hopes to a low, and realize that if i end up getting disappointed, that's my own fault. I'm just going to make the best out of the time i have left, if all is true.

I love you and miss you.
You've made a huge difference in my life, and even if you end up miles away, you'll always be my best friend. Come home soon so i can hug you please.<3

Wtfever

I don't understand? Why in the world do people expect respect, when they don't even give you respect to start out with? I don't understand why people are so fucking rude to each other, for no reason. If it is a 'maturity' issue, then you probably won't be wanted around by many people. I don't understand why some people are so damn nice, and they get nothing in return, accept hatred. It's pretty sad. It's even more sad when the people who send out the hatred, think they're too good for most people. I am not saying i am the nicest, most caring person on the planet, but i do understand that it isn't right. Jealousy takes a huge part in it, most likely. It sucks, life sucks. Get the fuck over it. I really don't understand how somebody could be so fake? I really don't get it. I guess it's the 'maturity' thing again. Trying to fit into a place, where you obviously don't belong. You change yourself for multiple reasons, without even noticing your hurting the ones who loved you, for who you truly are. People these days...

Most of the people who leave your life, never deserve another change. In some cases, maybe. But if it's because of what i was talking about, they should never deserve another change. It may sound pretty harsh, but in all honesty, they left for a reason, and they are coming back for a reason. Whatever that reason is, it's probably not a good one. They probably realized that where they were in life wasn't where they want to be and they want to be their true self again. It's their fault they left in the first place, they should have held onto you, instead of letting you go. Just in case one day they might need you, instead of shoving their way back into your life, trying their hardest to return. They shouldn't get that chance.

I know i may sound like a bitch, but it all depends on the person, and their characteristics, they way they treated you when they were slowly transforming, and disappearing. It's okay to feel like you deserve sympathy. It's okay to feel like you deserve a better friend. It's okay to tell them "I'll always be here for you, but you left for a reason, and i don't want you back." It's okay so feel down sometimes. Doing the smart thing, doesn't always feel good. But it will affect you in the future, or possibly the next couple of days. I know what I'm talking about, you may not understand what I'm fully explaining, but... most people just don't deserve a second chance.